What is hard you may ask? Our infertility struggle? Our loss? The endless amount of gray and rain in the weather, only apparently leaving for a few short hours today? Yes, yes, and yes. Although today is not about those. Today is about something much more serious.
T and I simply can NOT master the no-look, from the side high five.
It is heartbreaking really. The ability to connect our hands in such a no-blink, right on the money, hit it where it counts kind of way should be natural to us. I mean, I do think we are soul mates. Definitely able to read each other's minds and finish each other's sentences.
So why can't we high five like this?!?!?!
I don't think you understand how devastating this failure is. We have been practicing for literally years. We have had the misguided self-confidence to even attempt the high five in front of people, and miss each other by miles. Due to our height difference, T is naturally too high and I am too low. So we each try to correct and miss the other way. One of us is too far forward and the other too far back.
Like our other struggles in life, we will persevere. We will keep our eye on the prize, and we WILL at least make some contact with our hands at some point. But unfortunately, that day has not come yet, and I'm just not sure I can handle the wait any longer.
Someday. Someday.
Edit to add: T's sister came over tonight and read the blog. After she stopped laughing hysterically, we demonstrated our ineptitude to her. Still failing. Damn.
Definitely someday...although, I have to wonder just how many takes it took for them to finally get it right.
ReplyDeleteWishing you the best of luck with the rest of this cycle. I hope one or two of the fantastic five are here for the long haul.
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ReplyDeleteThis could be a metaphor for my relationship with my husband right now. We're having trouble connecting lately, primarily due to the emotional turmoil of infertility. Maybe practicing the blind, from-the-side high-five would help, kind of like the falling-catching exercise for trust issues. It would be a fun distraction, at the very least. Keep at it!
I think the fix could be you sitting on a pillow or something else that boosts you up a bit. Maybe just a leg/foot? Good luck! I'm going to try this when I get home. :)
ReplyDeleteLMAO!!! Be easy on yourself. They are sitting down, not shifting positions, bodies lined up so they can feel each other move. And they probably practiced for hours to get it right.
ReplyDeleteHi from ICLW. I'm not going to even try the no look high five...I'd probably hit my spouse trying.
ReplyDeleteMy husband and I have this same problem. Based on your post, I am going to blame it on his height. If only he hadn't grown quite so much as a teenager, we could be high-fiving masters.
ReplyDeletehi from iclw! we too deal with mfi! Hope this is the cycle for you!
ReplyDeleteHere from ICLW - I love that your blog makes me laugh! This time around, I've found so many I want to keep reading!
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