Life with lemons

I've been told that I'm very lucky and have an enviable life.  While I certainly am blessed in countless ways, I think that a healthy sense of optimism is what spreads to those around me.  I constantly want to make the best out of a tough situation, and that tenacity does allow me to not just focus on the positive, but to actually BE the positive, FEEL the positive, and eventually the positive is all that remains.

I have a great husband....after a not-so-great divorce.  I have a good job...after a not-so-great mass layoff at the start of my career that made me move to a new town for employment.  I have a wonderful stepdaughter...who also has a wonderful mother who is (and should be) first in her life.  I have a great education and great certifications...after countless hours of studying on Saturdays, working through the week, and essentially missing out on quite a lot of fun.   Sure, I know those ifs, ands, and buts are there, but really it is the former part of each sentence that I focus on; those are the parts that make me ME. 

And I hope the path continues will be the same.  I want to say that I am a great mother to a beautiful child...even after countless injections, hormones, procedures that are enough to drive anyone insane.  Or perhaps after hours of home studies and waiting for an adoption referral.  It's pretty hard to remember all the positive things in life when this large negative cloud hangs overhead.  But that's what I do...because it makes life all that much better and richer.  We (barely) have the financial means to make this happen.  We have a wonderful relationship and partnership, that I believe will be all the stronger throughout this experience.  We have humor and support and family and friends that love us. 

So, anyway, this blog will be a bit of musings on what I consider our current "predicament" -- infertility.  I'll also give the down and dirty, because I know that's what I would want to know.  Not all this feelings crap :)  So, I'll be totally TMI for those of you that want to know the details but felt uncomfortable asking.  But I didn't name this blog after infertility issues...because I hope that we find the positive in this situation - even if it isn't a baby - and I can continue to find recipes for any lemons that God gives us.