Aaargh (6w4d)

We have good news and bad news.  Or indeterminate news.  Or I think the nurse is a buffoon news.

Note that I did say we are 6w4d in the title, and as far as I know, that still holds true.  We measured 6w2d on the ultrasound, so we are right on track.  And we already thought we were a couple days behind based on betas, so truly right on top of expectations in that case.  We saw the gestational sac, the yolk sac, and the fetal pole.  At least the nurse said she did.  I basically saw a lot of spots on a screen :)

However, she said she didn't see the heartbeat.  She said it is so difficult to do at this stage, because you are basically trying to find it on something the size of a grain of rice.  Which totally makes sense to me. She really didn't even look that long, probably a few seconds, until she just stopped and told us to come back in a week to be sure.

Here's the weird thing though.  T and I came home and went on You Tube to see videos others posted of their ultrasounds around the same time.  We wondered how the heartbeat even looked like, because it did seem nearly impossible to see it based on what we were looking at.  In every video we saw, the nurse/tech would basically outline the gestational sac on the monitor and zoom in on the area that she outlined.  So ultimately the sac took up almost the whole screen, and the heartbeat would then be fairly obvious.  In almost all those videos, you definitely wouldn't be able to see it (not without a lot of effort) without zooming in.  But our nurse never zoomed in! I feel kind of cheated right now, like she didn't even do it right?  I've emailed a few gals I know that went through this at my clinic and are pregnant now.  I'd like to know their thoughts.  Maybe we really just are making a mountain out of a molehill, but it's like she didn't even try.

So we are back to "who knows".  I know a few things for certain:

(1) I am definitely more pregnant than I have ever been.
(2) Today was my worst day of nausea thus far.
(3) I'm still exhausted and cranky (which is probably coming through in my blog post!)
(4) I'm really frustrated that we still don't have a discernible answer.  And because of Memorial Day, it is really 8 days before we get back.

In the end, I know that there is nothing we can do about it.  If we wait, we should at least have more certainty of seeing something next week.  And we'll know to ask them to zoom in that time.

For all you lucky folks out there that had ultrasounds this early, what are your thoughts?  Were you able to see a heartbeat on the initial view when they stick the dildo cam in ya?